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Day 60 | After evaluation results

[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-08 06:37 pm (UTC)(link)
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org

Athos

FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org

They brought my father back to life
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-08 06:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ To say it changes things for him is something of an understatement. With no delay at all: ]

FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org

Yes. Please, if you can.
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-08 06:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He's pacing, when Athos comes. He'd been sitting down, but that hadn't really worked. It's not only his father he's thinking about, but that's what he keeps coming back to.

When Athos reaches for him, he doesn't even hesitate. He moves immediately for his friend, taking hold of his shoulder and tightening his hands in his clothing. He talks without really thinking about it.
]

I didn't believe them either. They asked if I'd want it. I said of course, and they said that they would. I thought it was a lie among many lies.

But it's not. It's not a lie, Athos, they're holding him. They said I can see him during breaks.
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-08 06:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His hand flexes. There's a twitching muscle in his cheek. How does he explain? How does he say that he isn't brave enough? ]

Not yet.

I want to. I'm just.

They want me to lead. [ A departure, maybe. This is a tangle in his head. He's still not thinking properly. ] The assessments. I passed, and they want me to lead, and if I do this wrong, Athos. If I disobey. If I step out of line, they could kill him all over again.
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-08 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[ That's the crux of it. He has to. He has to do it and do it well, and if he doesn't he'll watch his father die a second time. They haven't issued that threat, but it's as clear to him as if it's written in stone. They don't even need to go all the way back to Earth to hold a sword to his neck. They have that right here, at arm's reach.

He can't fail. He knows that Athos knows it too.
]

None? Even after what happened on Ajna, after I almost walked away? Only days ago I told you I didn't know if I could do this.

What if I was right, what if I can't? What if I lose my head again?
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-08 07:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His shoulders relax a little. His hands stay tight on Athos, though, and he leans in just as easily. He'd called him as soon as he'd gotten the message, knowing he couldn't deal with it on his own. He'd already been struggling here, already felt on the edge of something, after Ajna.

Now he can't be. He has to step up. He has to do what Armada told him to, he has to reconcile his priorities and do what he has to do.

He cannot disappoint. Not now. He can't afford to be reckless with his decisions because so many other lives hang in the balance. His world. His friends. Now, directly, his father. He cannot fail to protect him a second time.
]

You have your own burdens. You think I don't know them, but I do. You struggled with Ajna as much as I did.

I can't ask that of you. Yet I know I need you. I can't do this without you, any of it.
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-08 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[ D'Artagnan lifts his head, rolling his eyes a little. ]

What? Reckless stupidity?

[ Which, actually, is a sign that the panic has faded. Athos is so calm all the time that some of it has to transfer.

Besides that, he's right. There are the other recruits to think of, too. He'll have to be there for them. He'll have to be the stable one, for them.

Can he do that?

He really doesn't know. But he'll try. He can't let anyone down. Now more than ever.
]

I can't let my father die a second time, Athos. We have to leave this place one day, and take him home with us. I owe him that.
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-08 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He holds Athos' eyes, and eventually nods. He's right. Of course he's right.

They'll do this. He squeezes Athos' shoulder.
]

When I see him. If they allow it, will you come with me?
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-08 09:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He doesn't feel brave enough.

But it's more than that. There's the thought, also, of them meeting. Athos, and his father.
]

Thanks.

[ He nods, and steps back, finally. ]

I'll ask if we can.
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-08 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
It's enough that you're here.

[ D'Artagnan looks up at him. There's a smile, this time, a gentle one. ]

That you came when I called. As soon as I called.

Thank you, Athos.
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-09 04:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He knows what saying that means to Athos. He'd lost his brother, lost his wife. Lost everything. D'Artagnan looks down. The smile hasn't gone away. ]

You're mine. That doesn't mean I can't be grateful.

Will you stay, awhile? I realise I just asked you to drop everything without...even asking if you were busy.
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-11 12:17 am (UTC)(link)
[ D’Artagnan has to laugh at that. He steps back, finding a seat instead. He’s expecting Athos to do the same. ]

You can brood near me instead. What about you? You passed as well, didn’t you?
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[personal profile] mousquetaire 2014-11-16 02:17 am (UTC)(link)
[ He already has, as a matter of fact. It reminds him of something else he needs to tell Athos. He's not sure how well this is going to be received. ]

Hanna passed. And Kyoya, they're both on our team.

So is Elena. [ And at this point, he casts a wary eye over his friend. ] Thought I'd best not let that be a surprise.

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