I don't know. I don't know, Athos. I've been trying to work that out myself.

[ And he hasn't been able to. The people here had come to mean so much to him. Alina. Jack. Clary. Hibari. Garrus. Yet he'd forgotten all of them, as easily as breathing. ]

And there's more. There's the loss of Ajna, there's everything that means. I forgot that. How could I forget destroying a planet, Athos? I thought I'd live with that guilt for all time, and I just forgot.